I feel bad

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I feel bad.because I didn’t contact with a English teacher by e-mail .He live in Mexico.Recently I have joined in a English learning forum by internet.I know him there.He wrote a topic and welcome to us .I like to share my English learning exprience with him.I also would like to tell him my trouble in learning English.so I worte a leter by e-mail and send it.But it was sent back,and the postmaster said that it was SMPT error.Unfortunately,I didn’t know the reason.
I want to practise my English by writing .I insist on witing something in English.It is the most difficulty for me to check up the essay.I don’t find the mistakes,so I’m confuse.
I don’t know why I learn English for many years but I don’t really master my second language. Someone say that we should learn some language in the language environment,such as the mother tongue.And child learn language much quicker than adult,so we learn a language as early as possible.These sound reasonable.But I wonder why the most people don’t go abroad,and we study in the same school,attend the same speech,do the same homeworke,but some are good at the second language,others(more people)are at low level.Why?Why?Why?…
I’m poor in English,but I don’t back down.In short,I do my best to learn English.I belive that I will master it.I belive I do.