My mind never rests...

[Triumph]

My mind never rests...

When I'm on the way to school on a bus, I keep looking out of the window. Seeing the trees waving and the leaves quivering, I wonder, I wonder what they feel about being on the roadside.
How can they stand the polluted air?? the leaves are dull and the branches bend down hopelessly. They're tired, really really tired. I can hear their soft sound," bring us away.. bring us to our home, that lovely forests....please..please..." .....

Looking around inside the bus, it's a strange feeling. People from differnet background and don't know each other are staying in such a small space. Mostly they're all in silence. What are they thinking about? Nothing is told to me from their eyes. Will it be wonderful if I can listen to their heart? No...I don't want to have such kind of ability? It will be a suffering, I know.....

[Triumph]

Quiet, thoughtful, stubborn, smart, stupid...these adjectives are always describing me.

I'm quiet since I'm weak at speaking. I can't remember how I learnt Cantonese. The first day I went to school I was in a lost. I coundn't understand what others were saying. I just followed what others did. Standing up to greet the teachers, taking out the books, going out for recess....For a long time, I didn't speak anything in school until I began to konw some cantonese. I remember that I was a talkative girl when I was in my hometown. But since the first day I moved to HK, I have changed......

I don't like playing jokes on others unless I'm sure they don't mind at all. I'm afraid the feeling of being hurt. I had that feeling when I was in primary school. Most of the jokes were because I'm a migrant. Now, I'm still a bit unwilling to let others know I'm a migrant. But, I have to overcome that fear.

[Triumph]

I'm not a confident girl. I feel nervous easily and my heart is beating very fast whenever I stand in front of a group of people and give a talk. I'm not used to be focused by so many pairs of eyes and others can feel that my voice is shivering. Much worse is that, my face and ears get red quickly, especially my nose! I look like a clown!!

Sometimes before giving a talk, I have thought about taking away my glasses so that I can't see things clearly. Somehow this make me feel less nervous. I remeber there is a book about a girl who wears thick glasses. She often takes away her glasses so that everything in front of her become blurred. She doesn't want to see the dark and ugly side of some people. Her action draws me into deep thought...

[weenixbreath]

it's a nice introducation of yourself. nice works. keep going. anyway, i have one question if you don't mind. Is the HK means Hongkong in your works. Maybe you should have more conversations to persons. Don't be shy. You are a nice girl. trust me.

[Golfygirl]

You put me right there on the bus with you, but I enjoyed the scenery. An idle mind is a huge waste--keep right on pondering.
thanks

[Triumph]

it's a nice introducation of yourself. nice works. keep going. anyway, i have one question if you don't mind. Is the HK means Hongkong in your works. Maybe you should have more conversations to persons. Don't be shy. You are a nice girl. trust me.

thanks for your kind advise!! You're nice, too, trust me.
You're right, HK means Hong Kong. Come and have a visit here. I can be your guide.

[Triumph]

The dark side of people...it exists in, I can't say everyone, but at least the majority of people. In my heart, I admit that there's an angel and a devil. Sometimes I have some selfish thoughts,then the angel appears and reminds me of the teaching by God. As I grow, the angel seems to grow with me. The chance of beating the devil has increased indeed.

Insist on your own principle...
I always bear in mind these words. It's hard to tell you that what exact principle I insist. But when the situation is there, we know what we should do, of course accroding to our heart. I find it more difficult to insist on our own principle as we grown up. We think more, care more and consider more, so sometimes we forget our principle. When this happens, I regret. Then again I tell myself firmly: you are you, as long as you're right and without any shame, just go ahead and keep your own way.

Live our life.....

[Triumph]

...Mouth, nose, eyes and ears....
Among these four organs, can you see which one has the biggest difference? Mouth for eating, speaking, drinking..., nose for smelling, eyes for seeing and ears for hearing. Their functions indeed very different from each other. Yet what's that? The greatest difference...

To me, they are generally similar. And this's why I always have this question: how come we can't close our ears and choose to or not to hear something. We can choose to eat whatever and to say whenever we like. We breathe deeply in a garden with redolent flowers but hold our breath when some unpleasant smell flowing in the air. We close our eyes when we we don't want to see something. Only ears, we can't close our ears in an annoying noise.

However, some people...are just too smart! They have the ability to 'close' their ears. See, all those sweet praise have rushed into their ears. Poor criticism and advice...are kept a thousand miles away!!

[tikay]

you are good at expressing yourself, and i like what you are showing us to think on. do you want more responses ?...or are you just fine to keep going on? with your writing...maybe it will be like a book? I am not sure how this is, and I am just curious!
......so, let us know your thoughts on this.

[Triumph]

you are good at expressing yourself, and i like what you are showing us to think on. do you want more responses ?...or are you just fine to keep going on? with your writing...maybe it will be like a book? I am not sure how this is, and I am just curious!
......so, let us know your thoughts on this.

thanks tikay! you are welcome to give me responsees. I'm also curoius about your thoughts!!