My mind never rests...

[tikay]

I wrote back but it didnt get in and I have to go now...just wait a bit I will try to reply late tonight ...after my last day at school!!! Hurray!

[fortminor]

i like your writtings ! simple but meaningful !
goodluck

[Triumph]

On 20th Mar, I took the public exam of plant drawing. Out of my expectation, I had to draw a bundle of lily putting in a basket and two more vegetables( I don't know their name in english). I was very nervous as I didn't pracitise drawing flowers and basket before, and the time allowed was only three hours. The time pass fast and I drew slowly...and rougly (all the four objects must be drawn otherwise the candiates will be failed) As time's up, I felt exhausted and wanna cry..I may be failed in this paper...............

Feeling down, I bent my head on my way home. I was so upset that I didn't want to eat anything. I tried hard to comfort myself and then I thought I was better. But then my friend phoned me and comforted me. As I listened to her, I just couldn't control myself and cry....

After crying, I felt much relieved....and I suddenly realized that I was quite stupid in the past. I seldom cried even though I was really upset. I didn't want my tears rolling down my cheeks and this made me thought I'm strong. But the fact isn't like that.............

[tikay]

Oh my goodness...crying is a wonderful thing to do when you are frustrated or sad...it is meant to be! I have shed too many tears in the harder parts of my life I had no way to control my tears they came very many times when I did not want them to. Always one feels a relief when they have passed. I think one day science will study crying more...I am not sure why it has been neglected so much as an emotion we all share...i think it has to do with behavioral science and now my interest is peaked! I am going out now but later I will look for something
(a study) about crying...

I had forgotton about this thread I meant to come back and answer more to you, so sorry I must have deleted it by mistake from my e-mail....I will be beck soon. (I will be more careful this time!)
Happy Day 2 you Triumph!
I will be back in here tonight...probably late.
I will try to come back to answer the posts of before.

[Triumph]

Man is a strange and interesting creature. On one hand, they are believed to be the most intelligent creature who can control their life perfectly. On the other hand, they are the only one who keeps hankering after the past and wishing to undo what they feel regret or what they hadn’t done well before. It seems that men have never been satisfied with what they posses now and they have bottomless desires to pursue the perfect life that is painted with abundant, bright colors and without even a trace of grey. However, the truth is that, to most people, unless they can adjust their life to the past or to anticipate the future to make changes they want, life won’t be perfect and satisfactory.

As a member of this interesting species, I do have quite a lot of regrets in my past which are etched in my memory firmly, and I know very well that time won't make them fade away. I still remember really clearly how I misunderstood my Grandma's kindness and love to me and how I stupidly disappointed her. At that time, I always thought that my Grandma hated me as whenever I did something wrong, she would definitely teach me a lesson and wanted me to reflect on myself. I treated these as evidence showing her hatred for me. Sooner came the day she passed away, even though I was surrounded by the miserable cries of my cousins and the scenes of adults bending in sorrow, I didn't feel too much sadness and there was not even a drop of tear from my eyes for my Grandma. As I grow up, I gradually understand what my Grandma wanted me to learn, and the deeper I understand it, the more regret and shame I feel…………..

[Triumph]

Yet, no matter how much I feel regret about things I did in the past, I would definitely not rewind my life to a past moment to make any changes. The meaning of perfect life does differ from person to person. To me, a perfect life must be a combination of all elements, including happiness, sadness, regrets, surprise, success and so on. No one promises us a garden of roses and it is meaningless to dream of it. Actually, all the elements composing our life are complementary to each other. If we don't suffer, we won't realize how great joys are. If we don't make mistakes, we can hardly make improvement. Even regrets are necessary to us as they can remind us to think twice before action and consider more thoroughly and deeply about everything seen in our eyes.

Life is indeed a journey of learning. Being unable to rewind our life to the past or to fast forward to our future help us find the true meaning of life. We have to be responsible for whatever we do. Through the things we have done and expected, we learn the philosophy of life, that is, to give and to receive, to love and to be loved, to forgive and to be forgiven.

There is a poem, though very simple, touches me deeply and supports my view to life.

“ I expected to pass through this world but once
Any good things therefore I can do
Or any kindness I can show to any fellow-creature
Let me do it now, let me not differ or neglect it
For I shall not pass this way again ”

It gives me strength, especially when I'm feeling hollow and puzzled in this world………….