Am I wasting time? Should i just be sucking down Crown Royal? Rocks glass full of ice poured to the top splash of water. Sip by sip, A new drink is now not far away. The third will come sooner then the second. By the fourth the splash of water is gone. Now I'm feeling good. How about a bud light with that. 2-1 now its two Crowns to every bud light. 2 hours have passed 8-9 drinks gone. Its a Tuesday at 12:30 pm by this hour the people there are the ones who come to work with booze on there breath. The ones Co workers joke about but truly are happy they are not them. These people in this lonely bar become your friends, you see them there all week. Not the kind of friends you would ever call up to meet somewhere the kind you might buy a shot or a beer, and if you were not there drinking you might never talk to them might not ever want to. Now that you have 10-11 drinks in you and a pocket full of money your "friend" starts talking about "COCAINE" You have the money and about 4 different ways of getting it. At first you say "Nah its getting to late". Before you know it phone calls have been made, your down 220 dollars and in the bathroom with your "friend" giving him lines out of the bag he didn't put a dime down for. Now you offer the bartender some to to get the bill knocked down because you spent all you money. Its 2am everyone is gone your blasted out of your mind. Just you your "friend" and the bartender. Doors locked cigarettes are now lit. You could drink the whole bottle without it fazing you. Lines in the back just the 3 of you. Straws are now being cut in half. Nonsense coming out of the one guy who wont shut up when hes all coked out. But you don't care all you think about is the next line and where did i put my drink? Its time to do that line so big it almost knocks you out. You tell yourself that you deserve it. 6am comes sooner then you think, bartender says we should go. You get a cab go home alone knowing you have about a gram and a half left and that sleep is not happening. Now you can do lines alone. And since your use to dumping out for 3 people you keep the piles the same size, just more you have to suck up your nose. Its 9am. Better get real drunk so when this runs out I just pass out. All there is is Tequila you dont care drink it. Now you start to worry what if my roommate comes home? He never does and eventually the bag is empty and your scraping all the places around the house where you put out lines, checking the floor for fallen pieces. Drinking shots till you passed out on the couch. So I ask my self am i wasting my time, should i have a drink tonight.