Srin Tuar wrote:You dont want her to be alone for her whole life do you?
lennye_tran wrote: you should feel happy because you sister has found someone she likes. Isn't it what you want to see from her, she's being happy? I know it hurts because she's no longer yours only but look at the bright side, you have another person to hang out with. Don't lock yourself and turn your back on your sister.
Frist of all, I would like to say that I thanks so much with your feedbacks from Srin Tuar and Len, and keep your eyes on this story to know What happened then?...
Yes, that period of time I am so disatrous and sorrowful
ops , I was stubborn to lock my heart on the upper floor, left my meal untouched althoung I was hungry ( of cousre I went to kitchen at night to find something can make me full, :laugh hii, I wonder why now I think abt that I can smile cause I was a child like that, hiii) but let me continue. Remember I was on stress meanwhile, please.
Yes, my face was cold and glacial, she always asks whether something came to me badly, I also gave a vague answer
ops and be silent then. I want my sister must be sad like me, I want my silence can make her think deeply. I didn’t come to visist my neighbour frequently, and hide all, I’m afraid they can realize…..the sadness in my eyes. You know, We live a life of a student happily with them in a room for rent, sometime I feel lonely and miss my family so much. Any day off work or study I came to my friend’s dormitory to learn cause my library doesn’t operate at night so if I came back home and see him coming to visist my sister, what happen? ( I’ll find a knife and…… :evil ha ha, it’s obvious he’s strong than me
ops , just more imagination,!! so…*) yap, I can’t concentrate to my study that time, I my self promised trying to be familiar with his appearance. I went out and came back like that.Then I took part in many activities, from arts ones in my school to social ones, sold flowers and greeting cards as another students. I do all to become another one, a person only knows to job. I want to prove I am a self contained person ( because I lived and depended on my sister so I don’t know anything before) so bad am I? I said nothing her my own thinking. I want she must make her choice: me or him? :evil
I realized the happiness from my work and growing up on my thinking. I can feel glad from getting a job in a small company when I still was a stupid student, very stupid
cause I made many mistakes but … all of them, from boss to my colleagues helped me all the time. They considered me a young member and love me so much, some times my boss got angry with my fault but…. He laughed then cause he told he likes the way I admit my mistake, I always tell loudly : “ Da, con biet loi roi a” with the smiling on my mouth, :R hii hi, ( I try my best to find the words can express that sentence in english, it means I have much of badness english, yeah, it’s true,
ops hhii) That’s the time I feel what happiness is!. I love them and thanks them in my mind, thank all days of working can help me understand my sadness is so so unreasonable, they confided to me abt the life on the funny side ( with same action, the way of looking at things are very different to a big-hearted and narrow-minded, right?) they always joke when they see I talk is not like the face I make believe: glacial, understanding life thouroughly. They wondered why am I so cool
in my face but my saying is funny,
hiii, I don’t know cause I want “ hu doa” any one? Hii hii, no, I’m still stupid in this own world.
I think again and realized I’m so wrong with my sister, I was so strict to her. I myself think a better thing and have a beginning again, I take a notice of myself whenever I go, I always get the concern of another, also being loved, and the trips will be delayed because of my absence or our friends will try to persuade me to join in, this things make me think of a importance part I play? it’s so complexed more when I gave reason of being busy and can’t join with them, my sister did too, she gave me a confused situation!! Oh my sister!!!
My behavior looks like a child’s one, right? And see I’m so bad, so bad, I start on changing,
I start understanding her happy eyeslight, I was glad back cause every thing I make her smile that did me same feeling
, I need only that. I felt joyfull when she goes out with him and look her face!! is filled with the shine of sun and say “yeahhh, I know” after hearing from me the asking to bring cakes and candy when they come back home, hii, and I wonder why couldn’t I see this happiness before? It’s still not late? Maybe not.
It’s a real story of my life, it passed two years ago when I was a student and I wrote diary in Vietnamese and keep it in my computer, and it’s so terrible thing with the curious eyes of my younger sister, oh la la, should I cry or smile to face this thing?
This story comes to an end here
( oh my god, it seems to be my teacher’s words when she finishs telling children a legend)
every thing will be aright, I see