for believing/ to believe

[constantly]

Hello there,

I've been working on a short story and I'm having trouble finding the right phrasing. Would be fantastic if a native speaker could tell me if this sentence is correct:

"I'm watching your gruelling race for believing your own denial"

-> Just to make sure everyone understands the meaning behind this: I'm trying to express that the person ("I" in that case) is watching someone else, who's trying very hard (running around, trying to distract himself from what's going on) to believe his own denial.

Is the above sentence correct or should I rather say ".. your gruelling race TO BELIEVE your own denial"?

Many thanks!!
Valentina

[Alan]

From a grammatical viewpoint, neither would be appropriate.

I'm afraid that your sentence, as it stands, is so strangely phrased that it would be incomprehensible to an English speaker.