When i took the lsd as an eighteen year old I had very many issues with bad parts of my childhood...and no thearapy yet so the hallucinations took on a sinister and other-worldly nuance, I suppose. It was very dangerous to me. I could not sleep at all or eat at all, nothing for two months and I was caught in a very strange world, between reality and science fiction...as i have indicated...let this be a warning to those who may go to similar places...you will never be the same. I did not know, for example that(i was tracey)...trying to stick all those butcher knives into my stomach. I was just exausted with fighting in the war. I was a spiritual warrior, deciding to go to the other rhelms. Needless to say the knives would not pierce my flesh because I held like 8 of them each one was deflecting the other, and being an athlete ...who had not eaten in 2 months, my belly was rock solid.
I was not in my right mind.
I was very tired, lacking sleep and the visions were overwhelming my at every turn.
I have come to accept my crazy past...and I don't mind talking it over because I think i have helped many people in certain conversations...besides one day I plan to write about all of it, my life would make at least
three books/movies...there has been so much to talk about and share, in it. I plan to share it when I am better at writing and when i have more perspective...I study these phenomenon...now, to help me.
I am a better person today than i was before losing my mind.... & I got it back again, so I am sort of glad for what i experienced (i am not upset to admit it)