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When i recall

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Someday
I believe i have been lost
Somewhere
Someplace
only left me one
--the world
And what give me passion
the memory
the friends
or my heart
(When i recall)
:D :D
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Could i be a poet?
i see a film today,
and have lunch in the pub near my house.
i still feel not very good after two months' sickness.
when i get up ,awake in the morning,i often feel dizzy,and with a heavy head.
then i turn on the recorder nearby .
i listen the radio.and sometimes hear a short while english news.
After brushing my teeth,i wash my face with water.
oh!one new day begins.
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yup. :wink: you could be a poet. :wink:
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GreatJim the Poet!
Sounds good...
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c",) I'm here... all the way c",)
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Today i would like to say the word---"heartbreak"
yes,it seems i am a beginner in writing in English.
And---
and i seldom use it in my ordinary life.
But what i want to say is it is a good way for me express my feeling inside ,
makes me feel calm and sense the touch of pease in my heart.
of course,also gives me a pride ,like talking to the world here.
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My heartbreak happened when i recieved a letter from a girl .
At that time,i walked to the window,leaving the paper on the bed.
i think i haven't cry.i just thought the end of the world came.And She said she had been married ...
Now i can say the story here.
And the time had passed for about seven years.
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Since the icons here give me some self-confidence,i will try to tell the story,Thanks .
I shall say when you fall in love love with a girl,you should insist,stick to ,no matter what will happen in the future.
The girl what i met during my school life names Xiao Yi.
We recognized with each other at 1992.
At that time,we were studying by working in a institution together.
She was the monitor of Class 1.
coincidently SHe and I were assigned to the same work cell.Other groups are three persons or over three of students.
I am in Class 2.
In our department there were 3 classes at our grade.
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greatJim wrote:Someday
I believe i have been lost
Somewhere
Someplace
only left me one
--the world
And what give me passion
the memory
the friends
or my heart
(When i recall)
:D :D
sounds like a Da You poem:-)
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Now Xiao Yi must have her own child .And we have grown up,too.
I also has been married,with my lovely wife.live together.
Does she sometimes think of me?i don't know.
we just met when we were young,and spent a happy period of time.
during that time,i am a junior student,and she is,too.
Ssometimes i think the junior student can't escape the destiny to fall in love with others.
but at that time i am just a boy,often feel alone.
Is the God make such an arrangement ,let Xiaoyi and I,get along with each other for once,and let this realationship last for 5 months?
If so,why not much longer,or all my life?
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Xiao Yi is a northern local girl,she is the eldest daughter of a well-position family.
And i am from south.Beijing is an unknown city for me.
at that time,i was 19.and shy,introvert.
I like reading very much,and made me more reserve.
We get along not bad.that's really strange.maybe because she is very polite.
One day,a meeting was convoked.And we will follow with the engineers , doing the work.
One woman said,"Jim is gifted,i would like to lead him."
--After the meeting,Xiao yi joked with me,"you have been praized."
I said,"i were really embarassed just now."
She went to reticency.
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jonrey10 wrote:GreatJim the Poet!
Sounds good...
i 'll try. :D :D
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Till today i don't know if i am gifted in architecture.But i know that's an assidious work,really need many persons' cooperation.
Maybe i just have no talent at all.
Xiaoyi and I were with each other almost every day.We worked together,sometimes went to the dinning hall together,and after the daytime work,we left the working place together.
We rid on the bicycles and i cycled to school,she went back to home.
We shared a fairly long road together.
One day,when we passed by a market,she said with smile,"Sometimes i really like to do some shopping ,buying the food and vegetable before the dinner."
I took a look of the market ,it was crowding.
"really fun?"i thought by myself.
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BUt in those days,Sometimes i also felt the routine day was not suitable for me.
especially when it rained.
When it rained,i must take the bus in the morning.And it always made me wet.
Once i knew Xiaoyi had a boy friend ,it was out from a student's mouth at the same class of her.
he also said to me Xiao YI was not very happy ,although she and her boyfriend recognized with each other many years ago.
For some reason unknown,day by day ,i felt i had been in the mood of love ,but i don't know what she felt.
till one day,when we walked together,just she and I,She asked my length.i answered,then she said in low voice,"they said it was the best length distance between a boy and girl.YOu have 179cm,and i have 169cm,and just 10cm."
I thought this word touched me,and fell into a kind of reflection.
How quiet the world is at that moment!
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RedRose wrote:
greatJim wrote:Someday
I believe i have been lost
Somewhere
Someplace
only left me one
--the world
And what give me passion
the memory
the friends
or my heart
(When i recall)
:D :D
sounds like a Da You poem:-)
What YOu meant must be DA You 's songs .they infected us .can not deny.
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The happy time seems always transient and easily to be forgottern.
When five monthes passed.The relationship between XiaoYI and I were ending,too.
And when the graduation came in the last year,She and I went to apply the job in the institution we were in together.But unfortuanately,both of us were not admitted.
I couldn't get a job in Beijing.And went to my hometown,Shanghai.
Before i left,I wanted to say goodbye to XiaoYI.
Yes,at that time,an atmosphere of graduation was spreading in the school garden.
many parties,many dinners together,and many alcochols.
We ,just would leave the university,leave the friendships we had shared,had owned in the 5 years.
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That afternoon was sentimental.Because i would leave beijing.Maybe forever,as i thought at that time.
if so, i would never see my classmates,Xiaoyi and others again.
One classmate said to me,"Return back as soon as possible."
...
I drunk too much that dinner,and everybody seemed drunken.someone weeped.and we took photos ,one with another.
these kinds of activities were happening day by day.
and i also attended the party of Class 1.
i had no chance to say goodbye to Xiao yi.so i went to.they were in the YuanMingyuan garden.
We had not been together for 2 years after the practise working in 1992.Actually i wanted to talk her my feeling.I thought that was my last word i wanted to say to my classmates.
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We played a little boat on the lake in the park.
Then took photos before the western door of our university.
I didn't know if XiaoYi had changed many.But when we stood together,i asked her if i could ask her to meet alone after the gathering.She said OK.
After taking the photos,the class dismissed.
I was on the bicycle,I told her,"I will go back to Shanghai."
"Yes."She nodded.And with a stop."I knew that."
We were riding aimlessly together.
"I...I ..."i just couldn't tell that word out.
"It doesn't matter.I think you should have confidence."She seemed just like two years ago,like we were working together.
I stopped the cycle.
"I love you."Suddenly i gushed out.
She looked like to be stimulated by the electricity.And after a while,gazed at me.
I just released myself after i had said the word.But in her strange line of sights ,i really felt embarassed.
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greatJim, this is your first love? it is so romantic and admirable! where is XiaoYi recently? Do you still love her?
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RedRose wrote:greatJim, this is your first love? it is so romantic and admirable! where is XiaoYi recently? Do you still love her?
absolutely yes, :lol: :lol:
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Xiao YI was the monitor of the Class 1.So I think I must have override the truth at that moment.Maybe she just thought me as a member of the class.
After we gazed each other for several seconds,She putted her eyes down,and began to play her long hair.
We just looked like two silly children ,standing beside the street in the school .
I began to lose my head.and she moved me very much.Maybe I just became crazy suddernly.
I said,"would you like to marry me?"
She must hear that word.I didn't know what I was talking.
She said to me softly,"I am going back home."
And didn't say word any more,she had turned the bike to the opposite direction.
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GreatJim, what a sweet story!!!

But something went wrong, didn't it? Maybe she loved you back, but when you asked her to marry you she got scared and left... :roll:
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and I think that maybe GreatJim was too young to be tactful to chase girl then :lol:
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Actually the story is not true.
But i will try to write it till the end.
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The day When I left Beijing came soon.
On the way to the railway station,i felt sorrow and was in muddle.
I made several telephones to Xiaoyi's home,but she weren't there.At last i gave up.
When I arrived the square before the station,there was some time left for me.I roamed there aimlessly.
One fortuneteller was sitting beside the road.I was curious.And asked her.
I never did this before.But she seemed genial .
I just gave her my hand.
And She said,"you will come back two years later."
"yes?"I murmured.But hadn't took it very serious.
I gave her the money,and then walked into the Hall.
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it isn't true? you are a great author! Carry on!
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GreatJim don't leave us like that, you must continue your story! :P
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really interesting?YOu must do jokes on me.
8)
But i don't know if i could finnish it.
:lol:
now,it's the holiday (week long )of Chinese national day.So i should repose.
if it stops,just because the story wants.
But it just is a story,doesn't worthy to mention.
actually when it begins,i know the time for imprisonment comes.
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I often think we live in the imagination by ourselves.So between What we like to be and we could to be has always a distance.
When i recall,the day was broken behind me.So what i am doing here is like to repair it.make it looks really like what i think it like.
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When you try to tell the story of yourself.the pain and sentiment come up.
it like a tide ,empassing you.I know the story is not true.But it is not important now.-------
What i feel and what I know should be apart.
Maybe Xiaoyi was just sitting before me,playing her hair,and saidto me,"the hair will diverge in the end of it."
I said,"i don't know."we embraced with each other.
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I felt i was like a kite when i reached Shanghai.I said to myself.that's OK.
Shanghai is my hometown anyway.
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There are two vacancies for me in Shanghai.One promised they could supply a house for me,if i worked for them.But the place it located was reletively far from the downtown zone.At last I chose the other one.Anyway,i didn't want to fetter myself just because of the money .
The ordinary job was busy and similar day by day.
But that's really fresh for me,Since i felt like I had became a member of society.I tried to make myself looks like socialized.
In my brain,i should be at least diligent,responsible,and active .
I changed with no choice.everyday i must get up early,whatever it was raining,snowing or whatelse.
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I quickly found the job was often a messing.for me,the memory was naive and memorable.
After one day's humdrum work,i actually became a robot.
To draw before the computer,day after day,I didn't know where the end was .
Shanghai was a fashionable city,but it had no relationship with me.
I thought to make a long distance call to Xiaoyi.and one time I checked out the number of the workingplace where she was working.But when i thought of the failure i got before i left Beijing,I putted the telephone down.
How could i do?And What she was doing?
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The time passed quickly.I think I should forget Xiaoyi.And i thought I had.
Till one day.the classmate of her,Su,who also worked in Shanghai,but not the same working place with me.Visited me,to my room which i lived.
He said many stories to me.ANd Su was a very wise man.I really thought it,because we were both born in Shanghai,and studied in BEijing.HE knew me well,in some kind of way.
He said he would leave China soon.that time we had been in Shanghai for about two years.
I listened many stories from him,and the opinions of him after he had a job.He said many kinds of poignant words on the job environment.
I agreed with him ,sort of.But I really wanted to know some message of Xiaoyi.Since they were in the same class before.
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Su and I shared the dinner with each other that evening.
He said many experience after graduation and said that to go outside is the best way for us.Maybe Canada,maybe America.
yes,30 percent of our classmates had gone outside.
"Has you any information about Xiaoyi?"i asked him inadvertently.
"I met her several monthes ago."
"IS that?..Where?"I asked,that's really out of my surprise.
"here,in Shanghai.she had some kinds of work to do here.And with another student of my class."
Maybe Su found something change on my expression.and paused for a little moment.
"I think you should go to see her when you had time free."After a while ,he said.
I nodded with silence.and began to eat again.
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I knew that was impossible for me and Xiaoyi now.She didn't want to see me ,when she arrived Shanghai.
I did something wrong in my work,and was warned by the manager.
One night,i went to the bank of the HuangPu river ,which was the famous river of Shanghai,I gazed at the water,the other side of the river .they were enclosed in the haze.
My mother thought it was time for me to think about marriage.BUt i refused.
And several young colleuage in my working place were falling in love or just married.
It seemed i never found someone or been found by someone.But i didn't care it too much.
One time a young couple got married.and invited the colleagues to dance in the Disco.
When we came out of the party with fatigue,and departed in the darkness of the city.I felt a little happier.
One girl came near to me,She always liked to drink coffee when she was doing work,So i often chatted with her.
She said to me in low voice,"YOu really looked like an alien tonight."And laughted.
I said back to her,"Am I?"
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nice story! sounds like a poem.
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