feeling so bad

[Vietnam]

will try to use Eng as much as I can, but if im out of vocabs, forgive me if I use Viet

dont know why im typing this down here, maybe because I have nowhere else to type it down then

me and my friends, we started some kind of an organization ( or a .... ) , the idea was to build up a place for all of our friends (chat, web, board ), to have fun

we've been running this for ( now is November 03 ? ) more than 2 years. At first, we were only 2, me and another one. We spent more than 3 months to setup the first board ( funny ? you may think so, but if you know that by that time, both of us just been the computers for a very short time, with no basic knowledge at all , then .. I dont know, you tell me ).

After the board was setup, we got some supports from the other mates, to "perfect" it up, and it became more n more interestin to not only our old members, but also the new guys. I dont know if it was alot, but after a month , we had around 100 new members registered, and a few hundreds of posts. So we thought, why dont we have our own domain n a new host which could make us more n more comfortable, so we got one, and truly things were going pretty fine.

But, the bad things started happenin among us. Some guys argued or were unhappy with a few others, and they left. Wasnt enough, then the guy that was with me at first, he got a new job. At the land that you have to go 30 km, to hear a phone rings, I guess not many of us can afford that, to continue staying online. So he left, too. Unfortunately, he was a nice guy, the one who's nice & good enough to stop any arguement among any ones of us. That was a bad bad day.

Then, a few others who stayed, continued the job, but time-by-time, in turn , some of those kept leaving us.

I know that its impossible for something in this Cyber world to remain forever, impossible, true. But dont they ever think leaving like that just shows that they're lack of responsibility ? to what they have been doing ? Leaving ? thats not a proper way. For those who got jobs to do , I do understand, but what about the others ?

We Viet have a proverb ( or saying ? who said it ? ) " 1 cay lam chang nen non, 3 cay chum lai nen hon nui cao ".

I dont expect them to do alot of things, Just, Just to come and join, give some little time for the Org. , but they did nothing

Recently, I've heard that someone in the team is not happy with me, they said they dont like the way Im doing ( then why dont they speak straight their minds to me ? I wouldnt mind that, if I see anything they say is right, I'll try at least to correct myself.) But I heard nothing directly from them-who-I-dont-even-know the names, they just talked to some others, and said "Where there is ME, they'll not be ther, or opposite".

I know I've been doing things arbitrarily, perhaps its all about my characters, but also because I knew if I didnt do things that way, noone would do it.

Truly, I have been so lonely, I wouldnt mind still, thats how I grew up. But the original purpose was to build up a place for friends, and now when friends think like that about me , that they dont wanna stay where there's me, should I continue ?

I was about to say "goodbye" to them. I do accept leaving the group, if by that there is a chance for the others to come back. But I'm wavering between coming back and staying on.

Can someone advise me something ? Im so lost now

PS: so sorry for these many texts, I'll not be supprised if not many people read the whole thing

[Vietnam]

umz, i've just talked to one of them, and feeling better now

it was also 50% my faults, the way I talked to them wasnt nice enough though

think i'll stick with it, til when I dont know, but I cant walk away like this, am I doing right ?

by the way, thanks alot for reading til this line, appreciate that

bye

[CoolVietnam]

though I dont like your ID so much, Vietnam. :laugh but I still want to share with you.

What is your board url?