Yeah, yesterday was an unlucky day of mine, too. I had some arguments with friends on the last day of year 2003! And unfortunately, it lasted till this afternoon when we finally decided to phone and say sorry to one another. Sometimes I feel it is ridiculous when it's all about boys, which causes we girls' quarrels.
I have already had a boyfriend who is studying in Russia at the moment, so it doesnt really matter to me if there is any caring about me or not. But my two good friends, they are still looking. I dont know what is to blame, perhaps it is somewhat because of the very young age of ours, the need for a guy who cares all about some stuff happening in their lives or some special reasons I cannot figure out. Whatever, all I know is that it was a bad New Year's Eve indeed.
One of my two friends (temporarily named A) have had a crush on a guy who doesnt care much about her. The funny thing here is that he cares more about my other friend (temp. named B). It's just like a circle which never has an ending point and I am in the middle and dont know what to do. Last night hanging out with one another, that guy and B had a little talk, which made A deeply sad. She cried all the way home when being with me. To tell the truth, I must say B is not to blame in this situation because firstly, she doesnt like this guy, her chatting with him was just like that of normal friends; secondly, it is never her fault to be beautiful, charming and lovely. It is also understandable if you were in my position last night with the common feeling of deep symphathy with A, of a little bit dissatisfaction towards B. For those unfair (for B) feelings, I was nearly mad at B, which now I totally regret.
Sometimes I feel having a group of friends of three is rather difficult. Jealousy and disappointment are unavoidable. Mostly if you dont have some same hobbies with those two others, you'll certainly feel being left lonely at times. And if those two others love each other more than they love you, it'll surely be a pain in your heart. We dont know how to solve this problem, just letting the nature take its course.
And it outburst last night. And it was really bad a memory of ours. We were all left with uncomfortable and mixed feelings.
If you have some ideas for this, please tell me. I would be very glad.
PS: My E is not really good, so if you also find some mistakes in my writing, please feel free to tell me. Many thanks to you in advance.